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*~ my journal ~*
DAy 1(or given date)
okay, well, tonight i restablished the entire site!! yippee! i have a completely new layout now. it's kind of plain rite now, but i really want this site to be as much like me as possible...plain upon initial viewing, but really good as far as content goes. ;) i think i'm satisfied with it. I will add some more lyricz and poetry within the next few days. KEep a look out mmkay??!
Kudos~
Why does E.T. have such big eyes? Because he saw his phone bill.
Day 2(or given date)
you know that song "clumsey" by oUr lAdY peAcE? i think it was written about me.this morning i went to class...no huge deal, but afterwards , when i was waiting for my ride home, i was just standing outside trying to avoid the popular kids and just be a loner.i was dressed all in black and my hair looked exceptionally nice. i was wearing sunglasses (i hate making eye contact with strangers). i thought i looked pretty damn cool too. i moved to the side to get a better view of the cars coming, and i just fell right over. teehee i was just standing there!i am NOTOURIOUS for falling. and it's not like i was running with my shoes untied. i swear to god, i must be the clumsyiest, most ungraceful persen alive. is that endearing or does it just make me a geek?. I'm such a nerd! lol
Day 3 (or given date)
Ooops just as i was saying i'd write here more often, i leave it for a week. oh well. quite alot has happened in the past week. i feel i've changed tho. maybe not for the better, either. see, before i was perky pink and happy, and then at times also a moody black (ok most of the time a moody black) but now im just... grey. and blue. all the time. i've become quite fuct in the head, not good. but i'm 'deep' now... lol. maybe not. maybe i'm mature. i doubt it. y'know apparently its illegal to kill people even if you're vvv sad. maybe i'll take up smoking... help myself die quicker. or maybe not. i doubt i will. oh well. love n hugs...
Day 4(or given date)
Im at home (sick today) so i thought i'd update the ol' site. I've been really busy lately (as usual) I have tried to fix some of the things that were down - But catching up, I had a saturday job, but i dont anymore (it was crappy and the pay was non-exsistent) and i'm glad to have my weekends back! hehe Anyway, today is my day for revision! I probly wont start anything big and major until this afternoon (me and my mum are going shopping again this afternoon – gap is having a sale, its about 75% off everything) but I will read some stuff (revision stuff) now. anyway, I must be going (I’ve written quite a lot today… wow) so… hugs, kissies and lots and lots of chocholates.. :)
Day 5(or given date)
Ooops I know i'm naughty for never writing in this very often, but its hard to get the hang of writing in here every week. and half of the time my website doesnt even work! I'm quite content at the moment. I've been sad (certain people going out of their way to make me feel bad, and people taking the piss out of me for no reason) but i've overcome it, i've been hyper (and thankfully i've overcome that too ;) lol) and at the moment i'm content tho. I've finished skool. Its so weird. All these people are saying i'm such a fool cos i like skool, and i miss it, and i'm saying they are so lucky cos they still get to go to skool. I've just got exams at the moment. they suck anyways! i like myself just the way I am and nooone is going to jump in my life and change that.
thats jut the way it is .. sorry! lol
Day 6(or given date)
Wow, doesn't time fly when...you're asleep?! LoL. I can't believe I didn't write for sooooo long - forgive me? No? Oh well. Maybe I'll leave....No? Ok. Wow, am I sounding like I have a million people in my head, having a conversation? Yeah, I thought so too. Well, we're all here to write some interesting stuff...but none of us knows what to say!
Lol. If you're reading this, its very possible you got here through my index page, where you will have probaly seen my new hair (colours!) - aren't they so brill?! lol. I was going for brite, shocking pink, but cos my hair is brown, it came up kinda purpley, and on me bleached ends, it came up shocking pink! Waaaaay cool. I spose. :) I went to the dental hospital, with my mum yesterday… they’re gonna have me sedated! LOL! Sooooo embarrassing its almost funny! Lol. Its just for a bit of work on my teeth. blah!
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~cruel silence~
Avidly, viciously active.
Who brought these dead
To dance in my corner?
Million by thousands--
Standardized agony-inflictors.
Refining quality, increasing quantity--
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~Storms in my soul~
The quietness seems to comfort me.
Yet I have so much to ask.
I glide throuugh the morning air.
And I see the tree.
That the lightning struck.
Tell me, I say, about your past please?
How do you know of the coming of the storms?
Yet you just stand there,
Against the dim light sky.
and you offer me no answers.
Again I question about the past,
But you look up and say,
"It looks like rain."
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~debcember melodies~
Cold drops across the sky to settle
where the windows show
beyond thick glass
the dancing children once more.
Show a celebrration
with gifts and ale.
The melody of Christmas clings
to every snow-covered lamp post,
to every bare branch of the winter.
All joy for the day they say
That Christ was born in december.
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~tears nevermore~
Your caught and taken away,
you'll be back maybe someday.
Now you're in the loony bin,
and you're eating off of tin.
Padded walls, not to comforting,
there's a lot of teasing.
Do not cry.
Since the killing of the gun didn't work,
you'll find something else to scare and lurk.
Starving yourself you will,
for this will surely kill.
You haven't eaten for thirty days,
you won't have a lot of pays.
Do not cry.
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~No fear~
You've always gotten okay grades,
you've got a fear of getting AIDS.
You've had emotional breakdowns,
but you always acted like the class clown.
Will your feelings ever leave you alone?
Will you ever stop fearing?
Will your head ever stop jeering?
Will your head ever stop jeering?
You've gotton along with almost everyone,
you can get along with anyone.
You have fear for yourself,
you have fear for your friends.
Will this fear ever end?
Will this fear ever end?
Is there someone you really hate?
Is there really such thing as fate?
Can you stop your fear from coming?
It always takes over your brain.
You've gots a lot of pain.
You've got a lot of pain.
Do not fear,
my dear.
For I am here.
Do not fear,
my dear.
For I am here.
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~Hate theme II~
You think you're great,
a freaking God.
Well, get the f*ck over it, you're not,
I'm sick of this f*cking sh*t.
You treat your own god d*mn kids,
like they're little f*cking angels.
Ha, you best be sh*ttin' me,
Yell at me again,
you're gonna burn in h*ell.
I forgot your worth nothing,
so f*ck you.
Take your sh*t to someone who cares,
I don't give a f*ck anymore.
I say go f*ck a cow.
You wanna treat me like trash,
think again, I'll stick up for myself.
If you wanna yell at me, and think you'll win,
I say scr*w it.
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